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[16 Nov 2008|11:31am] |
There are moments in our lives where we are totaly and completely happy these moments make waking in the morning worth it, in turn these moments are what haunt our dreams and make our heart ache when they are gone.
Only questions is what will tomorrow hold
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| Its been awhile |
[21 Jul 2008|11:48pm] |
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Since i wrote or even read anything in here
I've been waiting
just waiting
I'm not sure for what anymore
Life has been well life I've had good days even a few great ones but still there is something missing
I've tried to find what i've been waiting for but nothing feels right any more I haven't found that fit again
I'm starting lose hope that it will come back to me. Its rare that anything will
I dont write this for pity I dont want anyone to feel bad for me (I do it enough for myself) I'm writing this to explain why
I loved once...... I still do...
I chased after a dream that I was once afraid to go after for fear of losing it
no regrets
I guess its time to see whats next
So i'm waiting
I'm ok with that
I'm happy
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| life (In french) |
[05 Jul 2008|10:01pm] |
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Je ne me soucie juste plus l'alcool atténue la douleur la vie me permet pour le moment d'oublier demain Moments bon marché nuits vite oubliées Je que la sorte d'a oublié combien de vie d'amusement peut être
Carpa deim
Baisez-le je la manque et son non accomplissement plus facile
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[21 Apr 2008|12:32am] |
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My weekend I left 4 am on Friday and drove for what goggle said would be 10 hours turned out to be 14 hours.. to VA to see cat It was wonderful to see her it was the first real weekend alone together in a long time... I can't tell you how happy just being with her made me. Friday after the drive Checked into a nice hotel on the beach ...we had dinner and caught up on missed time.... A lot of talking and getting things out in the open. Much needed time... Saturday we had an awesome morning together and what was turning out to be a great day ended up with a little car accident NO ONE WAS HURT... Karma hates me drive 14 hours to get to my girl and give her car to bang it up but adversity helps put things into perspective.... We had a really nice evening despite the day.... Sunday was hard really really hard I can't begin to tell you how hard it was to leave her there......... It feels like the best part of me is still there but only a few short months and I will have her with me again the flight home was hell we left at 5 15 minutes late to go to Baltimore 20 minute flight turned into a 5 hour flight bad weather and we got redirected after circling through lightning and bumpy winds the kid next to me was green... then we finally landed in Manchester at midnight... Now I'm tired and sad so I'm going to bed.....
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| OK the Story……………….. |
[31 Mar 2008|09:56am] |
I couldn’t sleep Thursday night I went to work and then flew to IL
Horrible flight through that storm on Thursday
I met your parents and we headed to the hotel and got dinner I chickened out on asking them at our first meeting…..but they were pleasant and we talked and had a nice evening together……
That night I checked in to the nearest hotel to base I could find it was a flea bag hotel no way around it but there weren’t any other choices.
Friday morning we went to the graduation we had a 3 hour wait in the stands before the recruits came out while sitting there with her parents. They were talking about some gifts they got her I told them I had brought some gifts for her myself and handed the ring to her mom……. Who did this weird panting thing and tears formed in her eyes… The dad just got a smile….
Her mom had asked me not to do it Friday to wait and let Friday be her day……
So after the ceremony we spent the day trying to get away from her parents it wasn’t easy but we got a few hours alone… oh and what a few hours………
Saturday by this time I can’t sleep or eat and Cat has noticed I’m acting a little off……We went to the aquarium and spent the morning in Chicago had a deep dish that I hardly ate…… and then headed bake towards our rooms…. We got back to my crappy room and well now I haven’t sleep in 2 days and hardly have eaten and I was losing my mind
On the table in my room was a little gold box all wrapped nice and Cat had asked about a few times and I told her she could open it later…. So when we got back I told her to go ahead and open it… She refused at first saying she wasn’t ready,,,,,,,
I just looked at her and said your not ready to open a box?
She opened it and found a porcelain egg and a penny inside…. She looked at it confused and I was kneeling by her… She is like what is this all I’m worth?
I told her what were you expecting this (and held up the ring) She screamed HOLY $HIT and buried her head in my shoulder I guess she said she was whispering yes into my neck but I didn’t hear her…….She finally regained composer and agreed to marry me….Well the rest of the story kind of goes towards practicing to create a family it doesn’t belong on this bored
*Edited it a little*
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| She said Yes (Well more like "HOLY SHIT....yes... YES!") |
[31 Mar 2008|01:09am] |
I just got home.. I'm beat and wicked depressed I thought nothing could be worse then saying bye to her last time this time was a 10000000* worse
I will give details in the morning if anyone wants to know
oh btw heres a closer look
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| Uhhhg |
[27 Mar 2008|12:02am] |
OK its late
in the the morning i'm off to see cat
I have to admit i'm nervous so many things could go wrong
I've made up my mind to ask her and i'm not worried about that I know what her answer will be
Its the what if's
what if i can't get a rental car
What if she doens't pass boot and i can't see her
What if i miss the plane
what if her parents hate me
I need sleep
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| another update on CJ and a little on me. |
[28 Feb 2008|01:39pm] |
I got a call from cat yesterday and a letter today.
She is doing well still working hard and getting in shape.....
She got her wisdom teeth out yesterday. SO hopefully she will get some rest and time to re-coop.
She believes her end date is april 2 and her grad march 28th.
Me
I miss her soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. I had life with her and now life with out her I prefer the first.
I had a great interview today only downside it will take a month to get in and training for a month in cambridge. but $$$$$$$$ talks so shouldn't be too bad
My new car is running great one issue I am having them fix on monday
If anyone wants to hang give me a shout... I've been bored out of my mind.....
later
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| Update on CJ |
[19 Feb 2008|12:22pm] |
I just got off the phone with cat taila to some of you..She needed info for her security clearance...
She is finding Navy life to be less then what she expected and is a bit depressed....
She is doing fine physicaly but she sounded tired and down.... She is also having second thoughts about staying..So those of you who have her address please be supportive and not try to push her in one way or the other......Just let her know you here for her no matter what she decides......
her basic end date is april 2nd and her graduation is before that....
the other 20 minutes we talked well was stuff between to lovers far apart and i'm not sharing that stuff right now......
Talking to her makes everything else going on right now seem like nothing it as such a relief to hear her say she loved me and missed me..
I may have a question for that girl and a gift in a small box.....
ok thats enough mushy stuff she is well and thats the short of it.....
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[18 Feb 2008|07:31pm] |
I got a new car
My payments are a bit higher then i wanted but I figure i can scrap by
its a 02 explorer with 50k on it I got it at a steal since someone keyed one of the sides....
One of my friends said he could fix it cheap
should have in my parking spot by the weekend
other then that just sitting here missing my love.
I haven't heard anything more from her but I will update when I do
Prob be looking fora weekend job to help pay for this and keep me from getting into trouble
I really love cat and want to keep her.
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| CJ's Address |
[13 Feb 2008|04:56pm] |
I have CJ's Address at boot camp
Anyone who would like to write her please Email me at bishop169@gmail.com so I can send it to you
She is doing ok she seems to be a bit tired but shes strong and will be able to pull through
quick update about me
Kids are fine I'm good looking into a few new jobs and a new car well SUV
I miss Cat horribly and can't wait to hold her in my arms again but other then that life is ok a bit boring but ok
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[11 Dec 2007|11:48am] |
Quick update got nothing better to do right now....
Work is OK I got another month on my contract but I’m not sure I will get more so trying to find a full time spot and fast........
I get the kids for Christmas this year... I can't wait I'm sure the mass quantity of presents should be a blast...
I was a bit insulted by my ex implying that the kids wouldn't be getting Santa gifts
But then again she lives in her own happy world..
Things with me and Cat Talia on here are great. Well for me they are great I will let her speak for herself but I think she would agree.
I got most all of her Christmas gifts today.. I love online shopping
With the up coming holidays things are hectic...
Since my ex hasn't been completely honest with the state of Maine I have to go through all these court hoops.. I regret to say will prob come back on her and I will get stuck with world war 3.
I would like to plead with her to stand up and do the right thing but I have my doubts she will. I'm sure in her mind she is. Oh well
I’m used to having no help from her.
I hope everyone has a great holiday
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[30 Oct 2007|03:41pm] |
Quick update
Things are going really well
Me and cat Taila for some are doing awesome having her with me has made things a lot of fun. It feels great to be excited over a relationship again.
Work is well work we are having a re-org so who knows
kids are good and I'm fine I feel great since i've been taking part in sport things at work and hitting the gym alot..
I will be around have fun
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| For Fun |
[10 Sep 2007|11:08am] |
de·sire
–verb (used with object)
1. to wish or long for; crave; want.
2. to express a wish to obtain; ask for; request: The mayor desires your presence at the next meeting.
–noun 3. a longing or craving, as for something that brings satisfaction or enjoyment: a desire for fame.
4. an expressed wish; request.
5. something desired.
6. sexual appetite or a sexual urge.
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cap·ti·vate Show Spelled Pronunciation[kap-tuh-veyt] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–verb (used with object), -vat·ed, -vat·ing. 1. to attract and hold the attention or interest of, as by beauty or excellence; enchant: Her blue eyes and red hair captivated him.
2. Obsolete. to capture; subjugate.
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pred·i·lec·tion
n. A partiality or disposition in favor of something; a preference.
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de·sid·er·ate = Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[di-sid-uh-reyt] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–verb (used with object), -at·ed, -at·ing. to wish or long for.
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con·cu·pis·cence
n. A strong desire, especially sexual desire; lust.
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[04 Sep 2007|12:10pm] |
Okay my weekend...
Had an AWESOME weekend. I deserved it and I did finally get it darn it all. ;)
Friday Went to the buffet enjoyed some laughable drama
Saturday ... played taxi for Rob. Picked up some unusal sunflowers the flowers have purple stems, some red petals, some yellow petals. Quite pretty but not nearly as much as who they were intended for.. Met up with Talia and headed out to the beach. Walked around and had a good old time. Got some Good food, and Pleaseant conversations. It was really quite good. Headed home and hung out and relaxed.
Sunday... Did a little cleaning relaxed with meg and nate... Then went shooting with Taila and then a long walk on a bike trail. dinner and a movie
Monday... woke up a bit late went and got the kids. Fixed my brother in-laws pc.
All in all a great weekend was had. :)
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| brief update |
[16 Aug 2007|03:01pm] |
Work is going good hate to admit it better then good.....knock on wood
kids are great they got new bunkbeds and are very happy ky loves having the top bunk.
my car still stinks but as long as it runs for now i will wait till i can save a bit more before getting a new one....
yes I'm single again and very happy about it. 3rd times the cahrm any relationship with as much trouble as our's had should never had made it past the first break up......
other then that life is good bored some time so look me up
Later
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[21 Jun 2007|08:23am] |
August will be 1 year back.....
Lets see a year ago had a break down thanks for my friends who stood by me..
Bounced between a few contracts.
I dated allot and got a girlfriend
Been at this contract for 6 months got a raise and promotion. I'm Up for a full time position that will put me where I want to be
Full time business analyst with no degree in business.
Broke up with for mentioned girlfriend...
Its funny after loosing Sarah loosing anyone else just doesn’t hurt that bad
Don’t get me wrong I’m sad and I do miss her but I survived last time and I will this time
My job seems to be dragging lately
but on the bright side my boss wants to switch my work to what I will be doing full time and give me a raise almost doubling my salary until the spot I’m taking becomes available.
Life moves forward no time to look back LOL
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[18 Jun 2007|10:27am] |
So OK me and beth are done kind of weird getting kind of used to things ending this way.
So we break up friday night I have a nice night of drinking to help insure I made the right chioce.
Sat morning a bit hung over jumped on a ship and headed out to do some deap sea fishing...lets say hangover + high swells = ill mark
but the day was fun went back to more drinking later that night...
got up sun to see my house is trashed my social life is a mess.......
oh well life keeps moving forward no time to look back
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| soooo |
[11 Jun 2007|01:18pm] |
I guess i can update for anyone who still reads this and cares...
Life is stressful like normal don’t think that will ever change....
my job is going really good I’ve gone from a temp research assistant to a temp analyst $$ now they are talking about bringing me on to a full time business analyst$$$$$. I know what a twist techie gone over to the dark side of corp. America
I decided to spend another year at the condo I'm at hopefully I will be able to save enough to get a house before the lease runs out again...
Been spending allot of time with friends fishing have to say its a great way to kill a day even if I don’t get to kill any fish.
Me and the girl aren't doing to well but what else is new. Money is an issue and stresses brought on by baggage don’t really feel like getting into it.
Its funny shit like this used to get me down but for some reason it feels like this is the trend to my life. I'm getting used to it...
I have feeling we are at the breaking point. I think I'm going to be done with relationships for a bit... Really I don’t need the stress I'm happy in most aspects of my life. this is the one area that causes the most stress I don’t need it right now
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[18 May 2007|07:53pm] |
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